• I thought it was paranoia but apparently he actually WAS being distant
• Ended things off this morning
• Thought it was weird that he was up so early, well early for him anyway...
• He said that everything was just too rushed
• Is this because I held his hand on Saturday? Or is it because my friends were teasing me and saying he was my boyfriend
• He probably thought that I told them that he was my boyfriend
• Cried in the car
• Was only able to eat one meal without throwing up
• Having some scary thoughts atm, very dark thoughts
• Feeling numb, I kinda like the feeling
• But then again I'm not smiling much anymore
• I think my ugliness scared him off

• I honestly do want to be happy, but for some reason I can't
• These past few weeks have been shit
• Everything is just weighing me down
• So many problems to deal with
• As the days past the smiles on my face are becoming more and more fake..

• Completely bored out of my mind
• Skyped with Kim this morning, she got a migraine because I was talking too much
• What can I say? I'm a morning person 
• Still very bored
• Did homework during the first week of holidays 
• I.AM.A.NERD
• Only had two meals today....
• Usually by this time I had at least 3 main meals and 2 small ones...
• I was in an extremely foul mood 2 hours ago, dunno why 

• He is feeling extremely down today, so I decided to leave him alone for a while, just so he could cool down
• Not talking to him has made me extremely bored, when will this day end?
• I never realized how much I needed him, please cheer up bb :'(

• It sucks that whenever I cry my nose and eyes are red like a baboon's ass

• Cried in the toilets

• Cried in the car

• Can't help but feel shit

• I've known you for so long and the fact that you're not making an effort to come hurts

• You keep on saying that I better not drown when I'm in the water, but I don't think anyone would give two shits if it did happen, heck even I don't give a shit

• Bought way too much food and drinks for Saturday...

Crying is how your body speaks when your mouth can't explain the pain you feel.

Can someone create some happy pills? Cause I'm sure you would earn millions.
Or do they already exist in other forms? like drugs or something? wait...so in order to get some artificial happiness you have to get high? Hmmm.....