• I thought it was paranoia but apparently he actually WAS being distant
• Ended things off this morning
• Thought it was weird that he was up so early, well early for him anyway...
• He said that everything was just too rushed
• Is this because I held his hand on Saturday? Or is it because my friends were teasing me and saying he was my boyfriend
• He probably thought that I told them that he was my boyfriend
• Cried in the car
• Was only able to eat one meal without throwing up
• Having some scary thoughts atm, very dark thoughts
• Feeling numb, I kinda like the feeling
• But then again I'm not smiling much anymore
• I think my ugliness scared him off