• I'm really disgusted right now
• He told me a story that I kind of regret asking about
• And he was planning to tell me on the train? Full of people? 
• Thank the lord he told me online, cause if he told me face to face I don't think I would been able to hide my emotions
• Literally shivered in disgust last night
• It took him 2 hours to tell me the damn story 
• Made me sleep so late
• Never again.
• I'm scarred for life
• I'm too innocent for that shit. 

• I thought it was paranoia but apparently he actually WAS being distant
• Ended things off this morning
• Thought it was weird that he was up so early, well early for him anyway...
• He said that everything was just too rushed
• Is this because I held his hand on Saturday? Or is it because my friends were teasing me and saying he was my boyfriend
• He probably thought that I told them that he was my boyfriend
• Cried in the car
• Was only able to eat one meal without throwing up
• Having some scary thoughts atm, very dark thoughts
• Feeling numb, I kinda like the feeling
• But then again I'm not smiling much anymore
• I think my ugliness scared him off

• I honestly do want to be happy, but for some reason I can't
• These past few weeks have been shit
• Everything is just weighing me down
• So many problems to deal with
• As the days past the smiles on my face are becoming more and more fake..

• Completely bored out of my mind
• Skyped with Kim this morning, she got a migraine because I was talking too much
• What can I say? I'm a morning person 
• Still very bored
• Did homework during the first week of holidays 
• I.AM.A.NERD
• Only had two meals today....
• Usually by this time I had at least 3 main meals and 2 small ones...
• I was in an extremely foul mood 2 hours ago, dunno why 

• He is feeling extremely down today, so I decided to leave him alone for a while, just so he could cool down
• Not talking to him has made me extremely bored, when will this day end?
• I never realized how much I needed him, please cheer up bb :'(

• It sucks that whenever I cry my nose and eyes are red like a baboon's ass

• Cried in the toilets

• Cried in the car

• Can't help but feel shit

• I've known you for so long and the fact that you're not making an effort to come hurts

• You keep on saying that I better not drown when I'm in the water, but I don't think anyone would give two shits if it did happen, heck even I don't give a shit

• Bought way too much food and drinks for Saturday...

Crying is how your body speaks when your mouth can't explain the pain you feel.