• I thought it was paranoia but apparently he actually WAS being distant
• Ended things off this morning
• Thought it was weird that he was up so early, well early for him anyway...
• He said that everything was just too rushed
• Is this because I held his hand on Saturday? Or is it because my friends were teasing me and saying he was my boyfriend
• He probably thought that I told them that he was my boyfriend
• Cried in the car
• Was only able to eat one meal without throwing up
• Having some scary thoughts atm, very dark thoughts
• Feeling numb, I kinda like the feeling
• But then again I'm not smiling much anymore
• I think my ugliness scared him off

• I honestly do want to be happy, but for some reason I can't
• These past few weeks have been shit
• Everything is just weighing me down
• So many problems to deal with
• As the days past the smiles on my face are becoming more and more fake..

• Completely bored out of my mind
• Skyped with Kim this morning, she got a migraine because I was talking too much
• What can I say? I'm a morning person 
• Still very bored
• Did homework during the first week of holidays 
• I.AM.A.NERD
• Only had two meals today....
• Usually by this time I had at least 3 main meals and 2 small ones...
• I was in an extremely foul mood 2 hours ago, dunno why 

• He is feeling extremely down today, so I decided to leave him alone for a while, just so he could cool down
• Not talking to him has made me extremely bored, when will this day end?
• I never realized how much I needed him, please cheer up bb :'(

• It sucks that whenever I cry my nose and eyes are red like a baboon's ass

• Cried in the toilets

• Cried in the car

• Can't help but feel shit

• I've known you for so long and the fact that you're not making an effort to come hurts

• You keep on saying that I better not drown when I'm in the water, but I don't think anyone would give two shits if it did happen, heck even I don't give a shit

• Bought way too much food and drinks for Saturday...

Crying is how your body speaks when your mouth can't explain the pain you feel.

Can someone create some happy pills? Cause I'm sure you would earn millions.
Or do they already exist in other forms? like drugs or something? wait...so in order to get some artificial happiness you have to get high? Hmmm.....

It's really not that hard to say yes or no...
Honestly, you're making me feel like shit. Do I really mean that little to you? I mean sure we're not super duper close, but I always considered you guys a friend, a really good friend. I mean we did know each other since year 7...
Pfft but I guess that means nothing to you guys...

I feel so insignificant and lonely at the moment.

At this rate I will turn emo, nuff said.

Kim: Hey can you wink with both eyes?
Vi: Isn't that called blinking? LOL
Kim: That's not what I meant, you idiot, LOL I meant can you use both eyes to blink but at different times, gosh
Vi: Oh... LOL
Blonde moment for the both of us AHAHA

Doing another Skype session with Kim instead of studying for my exams tomorrow, SO GONNA PASS, WOOT WOOT!

OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OHHHH MY EFFING GOD

Was talking to him about summer bodies and shit and then BAM he sent me a photo of.... [NOT TELLING YOU!]

TEEHEE BLUSHING TO THE COLOUR OF A BABOON'S BUTT

-Kindainshock-

Alright, so I asked Chris to be my plus one to the picnic and yeahhh~~~ everyone was a tad annoying about it -.-
Even he got annoyed LOL
'In my head I was like leave us alone' <-- His words not mine, ehehe
Anyways It was really awkward in the beginning because neither of us would talk to one another,but hey! Don't judge! We were both really shy LOL He even told me so!
The entire group decided to play Spin the Bottle and let me tell you, when ever it got to me or Chris the dares and truths were plan awkward
They went something like this:

• I dare you Vi to kiss him [They got this on video -.-]
• I dare you to unbutton her shirt [We didn't do this btw!]
• How do you feel about her/him?
• Use five words to describe how you feel about him [Definitely not sharing what I said!]

Oh and I tripped a lot today too, god dammit I think I smashed the crap out of my poor toes ):

I feel like making my 16th now, hehe :)
Who's up for it? :)

Here are some of the photos!

Gosh, what the heck did I do!? Why are all of you Asians suddenly against me? Might as well not go to that stupid picnic if you're gonna snob me off. F*ck you, ya ugly sh*ts 

I hope the ants eat all your food and I hope that it rains on you. 

YAY I'm going to a picnic on Monday, maybe I should invite him to come along, hmmmmm....